Philipp Tanzer, more widely known as Logan McCree, has moved from his native Germany to the far northwest of Scotland, making his home in the small Sutherland community of Durness. David Downing ventured north to meet him.
What was it that made you decide to move to Scotland and how have people adjusted to having a gay porn actor in their midst?
I recognised Germany wasn’t my future and the moment I touched Scottish soil it immediately felt like home. After a horrible article about me in the Mail on Sunday I thought things might be difficult but, I have to say, there have been no problems whatsoever.
It’s quite funny that you say I’m best known as a porn actor. It’s true, but it’s really such a small part of my life. When I was German Mr Leather people asked me if I was going to start doing porn but I didn’t like the way those movies portrayed sexuality. Then, years later, I got talking to someone I knew who was already a porn actor and it was through him that I got introduced to Raging Stallion. I’m fascinated with sexuality even though, in reality, I’m not a very sexual person, but, as a job, I thought it might be interesting.
You have head to toe tattoos. When and why did you get the tattoos?
I started getting my tattoos when I was 18. I felt the full-body tattoo would reflect my feeling of alienation as well as representing my perception of being both a warrior and an angel. The next tattoos I’m going to get are huge wings down to my Achilles heels and each wing will have seven feathers, standing for the holy virtues.
You don’t identify with a particular religious orthodoxy so how did you define your personal spirituality?
Faith was something I was born with so I have always been a very spiritual person. I tend to call myself Christian, and use Christian terminology, because I grew up in a Christian society. Yet I feel connected to every single religion, or at least what lies behind them, because, to me, they all seem to derive from the same source and believe in the same thing: that everything is connected.
I think limitations are a very important part of society, spirituality and life, and that anybody who thinks he’s free lives in an illusion. I enjoy limits because they give us stability and allow us to achieve greater things because they enable us to focus. My values themselves developed based on my inner feelings, my conscience. When it came to being a vegetarian I felt killing things was wrong and, as for not drinking alcohol and not taking drugs, it’s not so much about my body, it’s more about my keeping my mind clear.
You said you’ve always felt very much outside of the gay scene. How do you define your own sexuality?
I never felt part of the gay scene at all, ever. There are just so many things I don’t have in common with it. Every once in a while I would dive back into it but, by the time I left, I would feel completely empty. When I was a teenager I called myself asexual, then I called myself asexual tending towards men, and then I started to have relationships with women, and at that time I didn’t call myself anything. It wasn’t until I was 27 that I actually started to feel OK with gay sexuality.
It seems that LGBT people are becoming more integrated within general society. Do you think the normalising of sexual and gender diversity is a good thing?
Here in the Highlands we have almost no option but to integrate so people just have to learn to accept and get on with each other. But I absolutely believe that every person is multisexual, if we all just get rid of the definitions and limitations we impose upon ourselves and each other. I think we change every day: everybody is everything.
So does that suggest sexuality is a choice?
I would say yes, but even though I think we can change our sexuality, it doesn’t mean we should. I don’t know if we are born gay or straight or become socialised that way, but I do think that, at a certain point, we subconsciously put ourselves into a box. Why do we have to limit ourselves? If someone asks me if I’m gay, straight or bi, I usually just answer: “I’m Philipp”.
The full interview with Philipp Tanzer can be read in issue 2 of UnDividingLines magazine.